I've always said I wanted to start a blog, so I decided to finally do it. Welcome :). I do have to warn you about some of the content that I will write about. This blog will be based on my musings and some (hopefully) interesting events in my life. Not everything will be PG 13 because, well real life isn't. So to start things off, I just wanted to give a little introduction to what you'll probably find here. I guess it will be more like an online journal about my life, and sometimes, the lack of one.
On my mind today (and often), is the male species. I am 23 and single; living in Southern California. You'd think there would be a lot of very hot men here and there are, but none of a quality you'd actually want to date repeatedly. Also, I am overweight (definitely working on that. I've lost 40 pounds so far), which makes the dating pool drastically smaller. And to top everything off, I'm a virgin as well. So trying to find a decent guy that doesn't just want to be my first is well, IMPOSSIBLE. Welcome to my life! I have been talking with a few guys on one of these dating websites that isn't exactly a dating website, but I haven't actually had much luck yet. Once I finally think I have finally found a guy that can carry a conversation, he then becomes very sexual and calling me all these pet names like "Baby" and "Hun". Some of it I don't mind because I know sex is a part of life, but when you randomly send me a pic of your dick and then want me to rate it...come on, seriously? I really don't want to be seeing that. I'm more of a face person anyway. I like to see what you actually look like not what you have in your pants. And then asking me for naked pics and when I say no, complain about how "I thought you'd like me" and "I don't mind, you can trust me". Why can't they just respect the fact I said no and move on. I'm just not that type to send pics like that especially to strangers I've been talking to for only 5 minutes. If I was that easy, I wouldn't be a virgin.
I do really enjoy texting this one guy, but he was upfront that he was not attracted to me. I then asked why he still talks to me then, and he said it was because he really enjoys talking to me. Usually, I wouldn't continue as much time as I had messaging him, but he is so different and weird that I just can't stay away. It's been about a month and we've sent almost 4 THOUSAND messages back and forth (not that I keep track, my phone does). I hate to admit it, but I really enjoy talking to him and am attracted to him even though I know it's not reciprocated. That's life though, right? We want what we can't have and get what we don't want. Hopefully though, I find someone that is actually attainable and will get me to stop thinking about him. I really hope for the last part because when he talks about the girls he likes, it actually hurts me a little.
So, I know this has all been about guys, but as a single straight female in her mid twenties, that's usually how it is. I am though, happy to be single and am not depressed I haven't found the right one yet. I'm young and have so much I'm looking forward to doing (like Vegas). Well, with that, I'm going to end this post now. There will definitely be more to come!
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